Sunday, August 28, 2005
dam sian.. i didn do anithg for my proj.. can u imagine.. well well well.. gotta go start on my layout soon.. feel soooo soo sooooo guilty...
i watched charlie n e' choco factory.. wahaha.. :p can u imagine livin in a hse made of choco.. yum.. i love it man.. :p lollipop trees... choco fountain n waterfall... no.. it shld be chocofall.. yum yum yum...
dear came wif my fav ice cream moon cake.. yum yum.. die liao le lar.. fat liao le!!! :(
izzit true tt u can onli choose between ur family, ur fren or ur boy? oh no.. i'm gettin crazy..
she's not e' one i know.. nope.. not at all..
i feel so empty.. feel so lost suddenli... i juz cant sae it in words...
well.. tt's mi n dear...

~fernny~ sian sian life = NO LIFE!!! wen is hol comin? 3 more weeks to submission!!
HELP!! wrkin time..
caught a falling star @ 10:26 PM
Friday, August 26, 2005
wen ppl hvin interim..w e watch movie..

it's us.. :p

usual jazz hu like to disturb!!

we girls... wahaha.. :)

hu's teeth is better? whiter?

jazz saes i look diff... wahaha.. -_- diaozzz..







after language test.. wif jazz waitin for e' rest..

after dunno how long.. we took train again.. :p wahaha.. :)
caught a falling star @ 10:16 PM
haha.. miss mi? sian sian sian.. project all e' way;.. not enough slp.. no project.. den watch vcd.. meet up wif dear... haiyo... tire sia.. not enough slp sia.. everidae late for sch.. wat e'..
interim dis week.. dam sian.. they start fr e' back.. n i'm reg no. 6.. wait till siao.. i'm e' last to present 2dae.. lucky sia.. it's a v v v v fast one... last few daes of interim.. watch movie at lib.. wahaha.. stupid sia.. realli nth to do lor.. all my thgs wif lects.. nth to do liao.. watched inside e' sea or sth like tt lar.. finalli gotta watch e' movie.. it's a nice movie..
wahaha.. i'm so happi ydae.. although i'm v v v tire.. bt i enjoy takin train wif dear... :p it's been dunno how mani mths we took train together.. *memories* we took a train fr boon lay to novena.. wahaha... :p no more cars.. no more lookin out e' windows alone.. wahaha.. :p e' feelins r juz diff.. :p
tire.. i'm so tire.. shall go slp soon...
stomach cramp.. aunty visit.. :'( argh.. wat e'..
soo mani thgs happened.. i oso dunno how to start.. thgs r juz not rite..
sian.. tml dinner muz settle alone.. dear got dinner...
quarrels.. wat can u sae abt tt? some couples will always hv quarrels.. some will nv... haiz.. y? is becuz i'm not understandin? or wat? quarrel of? 3rd party??? or wat?? haiz.. wat tokin me? i dunno... juzz dunno y? i hate tt.. can we juz not quarrel for a week? or forever??? *cries* *heartpain*
haiz.. watever.. headache.. gastric... stomach camp.... argh.. it's killin me... HELP ME!! i can take it no more.. HELP ME!! wat medicine shld i eat? if eat headache.. i muz gv up gastric n stomach.. gastric.. i muz gv up e' other 2.. n so to stomach cramp... wat shld i eat? no panadol plz... it's not helpin...!!!
watever.. best solution came out... SLEEP n DUN EAT ANY MEDICINE!!
~fernny~ take care ppl.. will not hv time to blog for 3 weeks be.. or seldom will update.. so.. DUN MISS ME WOR.. wahaha.. :p take care..
caught a falling star @ 9:58 PM
Sunday, August 14, 2005
hurt.. quarrel wif sis.. argh.. angry!! hurt!! tears almost flow down.. bt i manage to stop it.. bt..... wen daddy came n started to scold ME.. i juz cant control my tears.. juz like a tap... maybe i'm wrong.. bt i think she too.. is wrong..bt daddy sort of blame me.. n scolded mi.. w/o askin.. w/o knowin wat's happenin.. he scolded me.. at tt moment.. i'm lost.. totalli speechless.. totalli lost.. i oso dunno wat i wanna do.. wat i'm gonna do.. tears juz flow down.. i can do nth.. i'm her daughter too.. bt................ y? it's soooo unfair...
wat if 1 dae.. i leave dis world? will anione miss mi?? argh..............
i need a break.. stress is overcomin me.. i need to rest.. i'm hurtin myself.. i started to hv illision of mani thgs.. no.. i cant let stress overcome me..
i'm not as strong as u guys think... not at all... i feel soo weak tt i'll leave n gv up soon... v soon..
i cant continue wif my wrk.. sth is wrong.. i oso dunno how to describe it.. juz like.. so mani thgs happened to me out of a sudden.. i realli hv no idea wat i wanna do.. seems like someone is conquerin me.. orderin mi to do sth else.. i cantt concentrate on everithg.. includin my project... i haven realli finish my site analysis.. wat e'.. it shld be finished by last week.. n now.. i'm still here.. concept.. new concept is out.. bt none of my layout is out yet..
gastric.. well nth new.. as usual... is there anione out there care for me? NOPE!! not at all....
~fernny~ a world wif no love.. no care...
caught a falling star @ 11:25 PM
Friday, August 12, 2005
speechless... timeless......... *dead*
m i happi? m i realli happi?
i almost broke into tears durin lect 2dae.. i cant take it animore.. m i tt strong?
i'm a cry baby... i like to cry.. to let out everithg..
i think n think n think.. y is there love? argh.. headache!!!! y is there ppl gettin out of ur life n wanna come back again.. no way man... there'll be a reason y someone will get out of ur life.. no matter how close u wanna be after gettin back.. e' feelin will be diff.. totalli diff..
watever he said.. it's realli like a knife had pierce into my heart.. so painful.. u cant stop e' pain.. e' tears flowin down my cheecks..
well.. tell u guys sth happi.. sth i'm v proud of.. i'm proud of my grp.. HEAVENED!! woo~Hoo~.. got back our results.. all of us got all A!! can u guys imagine? all 4 of us get 4As.. i got 2As n 2A+.. realli.. like our grp name.. it's like.. HEAVEN!! i cant imagine tt.... is like a miracle to us sia.. we manage to finish everithg in like.. 3 daes 2 nites w/o much slpin.. all our hard wrk realli paid off..
had lunch wif rainie, juan they all.. had lotsa fun.. wahaha.. soooo funny.. at least they brighten up my dae... :p
n now.. is.. photo time.. :p

my grp... heavened now present to u our concept.. 'serenity' wahaha.. :p

our model..

printing panel.. sooo stress... wahaha.. :p
caught a falling star @ 9:30 PM



guess how much.. guess correctli.. i'll gv it all to u.. :p



CADP lesson is a lesson to teach u how to take nice pic.. :p

fishy, sc n me.. :p

farewell for sharon n claz gatherin.. miss them... :p
caught a falling star @ 9:29 PM
Thursday, August 11, 2005
argh......... y m i such a cry baby????? argh.. i hate tt..
i cry wen i'm stress.. i cry wen i'm unhappy.. i cry wen i sad.. i can cry of nth oso....
i hv no idea.. not at all... quarrels.. no more plz.. stay away fr me plz... it's hurt... heart pain.. tot he'll msg mi or wat.. bt nope.. maybe i'm wrong.. bt i think both of us were in e' wrong..
i hate tt......
dun think i can take it animore.. no more... haiz.. i hv no idea...
plz plz.... let me die................................................. it's such a selfish act... :'( bt i feel so breathless now.. sooo pain.. stop my pain plz.............................
caught a falling star @ 12:37 AM
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
i'm confused.. saw francis 2dae.. he told mi a lot of thgs.. has he changed? shld i trust him? seriousli speakin.. i still hv no trust on him.. he cheated me.. he lied to me.. tell mi stories.. no way man.. i cant be soft hearted.. wat had past had already past..
ming's bro called me 2dae.. he found sth n wanna pass it to me.. shld i go get it? or shld i juz let it go? it'd already been yrss...
dear i miss u..............................
dun u think i'm livin in dis lifeless world?? nope.. shld be.. i think i hv no live.. everidae project project n project.. kinda of sick of it.. like wat rainie had said.. wat we r doin r juz e' same as e' previous project.. same as all e' project we did.. site analysis, layout, plantin plan.. blah blah... argh... e' onli hol for mi is juz term break.. dun u guys think i hv no life? argh............
project.... wrk load is gettin more n more.. lesser time for more wrk load.. can die sia.. slpless nite again at last week of project? or even earlier?
site analysis shld be finish by last week.. bt.. i'm still doin it.. wat e' hell.. modern retro my concept? or rejuvenent? argh.... dunno lar..
can someone help me? i dun think i can make it animore... wat if one dae i die? i spent my whole afternoon readin all e' letters i kept.. memories.. *cries* i juz cant believe tt some of my frenz already left me..
readin e' letters gv mi back more memories.. n at least wen 1 dae i leave.. i noe e' memories will follow me..
y is there so mani illness? y is there so mani organs? y cant they juz tell mi wat happened? wif juz 1 scan...cramp.. is now part of my life.. vomit too... i'm feelin weaker n weaker everidae.. human wif a mask? m i? hu noes.. u nv noe wen i'm havin e' pain...n when e' pain is comin..
~fernny~ cramp...................................
caught a falling star @ 8:34 PM
Sunday, August 07, 2005
no mood to cont wif my project.. didn do anithg... :'(
lighting plan not wif me... sian,, dunno wat to do suddenli.... so lost.. n tt's end of myy project.. i didn do... :'( argh.. wanna finish my site analysis.. bt... didn touch at all... :'(
gastric... irritating.. hate tt.. i dun wan pain.. i dun wan medication.. all i wan is a peaceful live.......
went to c fireworks ydae.. nth special actualli.. bt i enjoy e' time wif dear.. :p had dinner at newton.. yum.. e' fishball.. yum. love it... :p
well.. it's onli 9.. bt i think i'm gonna slp soon.. i'm tire.. *headache* i need a rest badli.. i week break is realli not enough.. it's short..............................
fireworks tml.. 11.59.. too late.. dear had to wrk e' next dae.. dun think goin to c liao... :p
~fernny~ tire..... tire......... tire..............
caught a falling star @ 8:53 PM
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
argh.. wat a dae..
someone juz dun fit to be a christian... well well well.. it's his blog.. i hv no rite to comments.. bt.. i realli think it's such a disgrace of bein a christian..n not onli me.. mani others there think soo too..
NOT ENOUGH SLP!! did nth in sch... wahaha.. :p lazy is e' onli word tt can describe me now.. wahahahaha.. :p well.. at least i admit.. :p
was doin my site analysis juz now.. i think i'll change to site 1.. should i? haiz.. confused... cuz i think there's too mani diff entrance n exit in site 2 liao.. kinda difficult to do.. n e' railin.. liew.. muz change liao lar.. realli v 80s lor.. cannot stand it.. bt i cant change e' railin of e' whole buildin.. *headache sia* at least for site 1.. i noe it's a study n waitin area.. whereas for site 2.. it's juz a 'gatherin' area.. argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! confused..
retro my next concept? wahaha.. shall consider it leh.. tt place realli look 80s to me..
ydae.. presentation.. well.. kinda ok.. site visit.. haiz.. met dear after tt.. :p makan.. forgot all abt my hp. didn go repair.. wahaha.. :p wanna go watch movie de.. bt after reachin hm.. lazy to go out again..w ahaaha.. :p n dear dear slp all e' way n i hv no place to slp!! argh... :p
noe wat.. my mummy thinks her hp is too dirty n soak it in e' water for a nite.. wahaha.. :p n now e' screen of her hp.. there's water wif bubbles.. wahaha.. :p haiyo.. tt's my mum.. not e' 1st time she wash phone liao.. tt time wash hse phone.. now hp.. wat's next..wahaha.. well.. tt's mummy.. :p
sian.. project start liao.. NOT ENOUGH BREAK!! equal period of time.. a bigger site.. lesser info given.. individual wrk.. wat e' hell..
all dis means.. NO TIME TO SLACK.. no time to go out.. lesser time for shoppin... lesser time for a lot a lot of thgs... haiz........
i miss dear..
i wanna watch bewitched.. n e' island....
well well wel.. time to hv some wrk done.. time for some bedtime stories liao.. wahaha.. :p
~fernny~
caught a falling star @ 8:58 PM
Monday, August 01, 2005
i'm happi.. i meet them again.. after.. dunno how mani weeks.. or mths.. haha.. i'm sooo happi.. :p
although swensen again.. bt i enjoy it a lot a lot.. :p time passes soooo fast.. haiz.. nvm.. we shall hv another gatherin soon ba... :p n julie.. he promise to come for e' next gatherin.. wahaha.. :p
catchin up wif them.. eatin.. bt it's too late.. nv watch movie in e' end.. soli guys.. :p some other dae i think... :p i enjoyed....
tob told mi sth.. n i agree to it too.. actualli i agreed to it long ago... great minds think a like.. rite.. :p wahaha.. :p well.. well.. well............
aloy is goin NS soon.. tob too.. sian.. hardli meet liao. like zhuang.. idiot!! dun even reply me!!!!!!
well well well...... late liao.. gotta go slp liao le lar.. tml got presentation.......!!!!!!
~fernny~ i enjoyed myself.. realli realli.. :p
caught a falling star @ 11:53 PM